I became afraid of advicing you or even do a little bit of nagging. You used to find it sweet. But now my nagging is just annoying and makes you frustrated.
My voice and my presence used to be soothing and calming to you. But i guess that is not the case anymore.
Skype session and calling sessions you made it clear that it is unnecessary to do it everyday. You said you hate the routine we are having. These words are kind of hurtful. To me these sessions are smtg i look forward to everyday cuz its the only connection we have left.
Now with that gone.. what else is there to hold on to.
I wonder if you noticed i never ask for skype sessions or even viber you anymore. Cuz i dont want to be dat annoying girlfriend who forcr you to do things you dont like. I hope my decision is wise.
Then April is coming soon. .
I pretty much regretted on purchasing the tickets or even planning to go there.
I realise i caused such a huge burden on you on my parents and even i am a burden to myself. Alot of things had to be compromised for this trip and that really is not how i imagined it to be in the first place. Plus you dont look as excited .. i guess i shouldn't have gone.
Im losing the excitement and anticipation already.. which is really sad.
Why are we like this again?
I want to feel loved again.
That special feeling ..
I dont feel it anymore..
I dont think relationship are supposed to be like this..
I just feel sad all the time..
I dont really know how to describe this..
But it might turn out that this trip
Its gonna be a decisive one..
Its either a yes or a no.
That so far is something i am sure of.
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